I've been thinking about this phrase a lot lately. It's true. If you don't change your habits, you won't change your life. But I exercise, and I try to eat right. So why is my weight still a little more than I want it to be? Why do I lose and return to the same weight? I started thinking about what it was that I needed to do differently. To do that I had to look at what I have always done. Guess what? What I have always done is obsess about what size I am 'supposed' to be. That hit me so hard.
I suddenly realized that I have held myself back, because I have talked negatively to myself. I have allowed my size to decide what I would wear and how I would feel. I kept myself at a size because I felt I didn't deserve to be anything else. OH MY! I did that!
I am a pageant coach. I teach others to talk nice to themselves, but I didn't do it for myself. Seriously? So I spent the weekend telling myself what I tell others. "I am enough." "I am important." Nobody else really cares what I weigh. They care about how I make them feel. They care that I love them. They care that I am kind. In heaven, no one is going to ask my BMI. There is not a scale to enter Heaven. But there might be a scale that measures my heart and how much and how well I loved my brothers and sisters.
This weekend I ate what I wanted and refused to feel guilty. Guess what? I ate less. I didn't care about the food as much and it didn't taste as good.
There was a time when I was really little, as in 108 lbs little. During that time, I don't remember ever once feeling guilty about eating a cookie. In fact, I don't remember even thinking about my weight.
So I am going to do things differently and I am hoping that I will get different results. I am going to eat healthy for the sake of being healthy, but I am going to live. Because in my life, a piece of cake is a must. And I am not going to feel guilty about that. I am simply going to be enough, because I am.
I would really love to hear from you. What will you do differently? Let's start a conversation.
